freaking out

Today I was getting ready to order all the silk I'll need before I launch my new catalog.  I just found out that the company that makes the silk I've been using for years is in some sort of deep trouble and the silk is impossible to get.  Remember, this silk is the basis for my existing wholesale line of jewelry and a whole a new direction in my work which I've been designing and making and totally immersed in for weeks   I am stunned, dizzy and absolutely reeling.  The main distributor has come up with a sort of similar silk in a lot fewer colors on ridiculously small spools.
trying to remember that things happen for a reason ... trying to think what to do next ... trying not to cry.

oh my ...................